"[T]he truth has always been that without God’s intervention, I am selfish and prideful every minute of every day. I care what others think because deep down I want to be seen as great—I want to matter. I find it impossible to forgive; to truly be able to forgive people who hurt us must be one of God’s greatest miracles. And I belittle the God of the universe by worrying as if he is not really in control. Inside, my soul seems prone to slant toward every quality I would never want to possess. I live assuming I am not alone in these weaknesses. Mostly because I know a lot of people."
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"We don’t want to fall. We like to see great testimonies of God’s grace, but we don’t want to be the testimony."
Oh, yes. Please check out this article. It's called "Don't Pretend," and a lot of broken people just like me, just like us, need us to stop pretending in the church.