"I felt as if this woman had materialized for the sole reason of making me look bad. I am telling you that I decided right then and there that this mother was feeding her child avocados AT ME. And that also she had matched her child’s clothes that morning AT ME. And also that she had likely disciplined her child effectively for years AT ME. And that as icing on her (likely homemade and gluten-free) cake she was enjoying a lovely, peaceful, well-planned, healthy lunch AT ME. I felt judged. I felt like her approach to parenting was maybe developed solely to shine a big old spotlight on my “not good enough” parenting. She was parenting AT ME, I tell you!Exactly.
For years I lived in world in which people lived AT ME. For example:
"Feeling judged by other people’s decisions is an insanely ego-centric way to live. Like my dad always says, “Glennon, nobody is thinking about you as much as you think they are.” Everybody’s just doing the best she can, mostly.' - Glennon Doyle Melton
- Craig worked out AT ME while I tried to enjoy the couch. So aggressive.
- People discussed natural child birth AT ME because they could sense my previous sixty epidurals.
- People attempted ATTACHMENT PARENTING AT ME. ( I still don’t know what that really is but it certainly doesn’t sound like something behind which I’d rally.)
- People threw Pinterest parties AT ME.
- People trained for triathalons AT ME.
- People refused to eat carbs after 8 pm AT ME.. . ."
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Folks are not living their lives AT YOU
This is a great article to read, whether you have kids or not. I am not a parent, but I fall into this trap sometimes, as well, and it was great to feel convicted when reading this. I mean, it doesn't make me feel happy, but it is important to be reminded to watch out for this tendency. And it does feel weird when I'm in the middle of it and have to take that step back and realize I'm being self-conscious in this particularly sad and dumb way. I guess I prefer to avoid the error instead of have to deal with it when I'm in pretty deep. Most of the time, nobody is judging you but yourself, and nobody is really motivated to better behavior in order to make you feel bad: I guess that's the message I got.